Monday, July 30, 2007

New York Bound, For Now


I've been in New York three years. One year less than college. I'm not sure what to make of it. I'm so different... better. Yet, my heart is the same and I am still searching. Looking back, I realize that I don't give myself enough credit. And it's easy for me to forget that I'm living the life I dreamed. I'm living in New York and working as a designer at a magazine. For the most part, I'm doing everything I said I would do even though I'm still not sure of what's to come. (I am profoundly uncertain.) To me that's kind of amazing.

This is from my journal:
May 30, 2004
They say the first night is the hardest. I hope this is true. Outside my windows I can hear cars and buses driving by, alarms going off, loud music and people talking. This is not good for a light sleeper. I realize, I am not use to city living. I lie awake, thinking, "What am I doing here? Did I make the right choice?" I know tomorrow will be better, I'm in New York, after all. Then I fall asleep.

3 comments:

The Humanity Critic said...

Maybe the fact that you haven't realized that you are living your dream could be a good thing - maybe that attitude with stop you from becoming complacent, allowing you to reach even higher. Take care..

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